December 10th - The foot off the gas pedal

You know what it's like when you've been working at something intensely, that intensity cannot be kept up for long term. Well that is the point which we are at presently with our adoption pursuit, it may not be so much the idea of deciding to take our proverbial feet off the pedal, rather it is more the timing of it all. We are at a point where we know the next steps, ie. what paperwork to fill in next, when to come back to America, how to proceed whilst away from our home here in the UK. The deal is though that we cannot really do much with any of it yet outside of doing some of the form filling and admin side of things. In all reality the pressure is off right now, it will turn up no doubt come February when we have many meetings, interviews, home studies etc... to take part in. But for now we are playing a bit of the waiting game. This may not be bad practice though, the number one question that we get asked about this process is 'when will you have a child' and that is the one question that we cannot answer with any kind of certainty. Once again that is a waiting position as well, we cannot control that aspect, we can control when we do certain things and how we fill information on forms but not when a mother chooses us.

      Interestingly though while we are a bit a standstill with the process our lives do not stop being lived. Just this week we were served notice (given our 2 month notice that we have to move) we are not shocked by this news we knew it would come but we didn't know when. To be honest it's not the greatest timing but since when is there great timing for moving house. So that leaves us in the unenviable situation of trying to find housing for two countries around the same time, can't say I saw that coming a year ago! Once again faith kicks in big-time in sticky parts of the plot like this one, we are so thankful to have a faithful God that neither leaves nor forsakes us at any point. We are at a place of peace with this newest news even though it does throw up some new hurdles to have to be jumped in the not so distant future. Again I suppose practice for upcoming hurdles that we cannot see yet, but referring again to the Giant's Causeway we wrote about earlier in the blog, we step out, the rocks are there just not terribly obvious. That does not stop us from stepping out though, so off we step.